A Polished Love

Love is blind they said

And I scorned at all the love fools

Until I bend my rules for the very love I dread, 

For a love who would never see me as his muse.

A battle of my mind and heart ensued

With my mind's 'We were not meant to be' 

And my heart's vain pursuit,

Of 'What if it just may be'. 

Mind counseled me to hate him. 

But every time he came to my mind

My heart throbbed for him

And made him seem refined. 

Mind took me to another place

So from him I could stay away. 

But my heart rebelled and ached to see his face, 

Until she saw just a glimpse of him from afar everyday. 

Mind made me acquainted with others

Who would sincerely love me the same. 

But for my heart they were like brothers

Who in contrast to him, seemed lame. 

Mind eventually gave in to my heart

Knowing all too well 

That the day for our ways to part

Would be a hell's farewell. 

My heart being free from my mind, 

Pursued him with all she got

But the only thing she could find

Was that his heart was her's not. 

Pain crushed her spirits, 

Jealousy gripped her soul. 

Longingness drove her to her limits

And she crumbled and was no more whole. 

The day to part finally arrived. 

My mind felt relieved 

But my heart felt deprived. 

But love could never be seized. 

For days my heart grieved

And my mind cradled her,

Waiting for her to be freed

Of a love that was never hers. 

Years later I happened to see him once more. 

My mind was alarmed

And rushed to persuade my heart to ignore. 

Unusually my heart remained calm.

The eyes that teared when it fell on him, 

The stomach that felt like a butterfly garden before

And my heart that beat loudly for him

Did not behave the same anymore. 

Rather with a warm gaze and an open heart

My heart whispered to my mind

"I am grateful for having shared with him my life's part

And having gotten love all redefined". 

"He gave me a kaleidoscope of emotions

That I never thought I had in me. 

He rebuild all my love notions

And polished the love in me". 

"He's more than an unrequited love. 

He is the love I had to master. 

Not just any love but true love, 

True love in which self-love also matter".